I was, in the past, a joyfulhappybabe.
I almost forgot this pseudonym till I revisited my past a few hours back- through an old email that I have abandoned.
I did not tell my contacts from the obselete email that I have changed my mailing address and to my surprise, till this day, there are mails for me. I checked more than a thousand mails at one shot and read undeleted mails dated as far back as 2002.
And. So much has changed yet so much hasn't.
I no longer agree with some of the things I wrote and even found it surprising that I wrote them. There were of course facets of me that remained, and the experience of encountering past convictions that survived is, in some subtle sense, comforting. Many people who mailed me through the old contact have unfortunately drifted out of my life. However, a small number of them steadfastly remained closely in-touch till today.
I did note something about me from the past: as a young girl, I was fairly dynamic, successful (only 'cause I felt I was really very in-touch with my dreams and busy accomplishing them) and clear about my direction and vision. Today, I cannot say the same about myself. I am honestly a bit lost with regards to decisions. I NEVER had to eliminate options because I always knew what I would choose.
But not today.
Today, the joyfulhappybabe has passed me by.
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yes - i still remember that. We were in the IT classroom at SA registering for a email address.
One thing remains the same.
Your preference on using loooooooong nicknames. joyfulhappybabe? awildflowerintheuniverse? haha... I want to know what you will name your baby! haha...
Yep. It's an irritating habit I must admit- the inability to be succinct. I must have failed my summary! hee.
yes yi! i remembered that too.
you may had been a "joyfulhappybabe" once but it doesn't end there,does it?
u gonna be a "joyfulhappylady" now,don't u? 6-^
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